Shopping!

Yes! I'm going to Helsinki tommorow! I probably will burn loads of caloires! I hope so. But I have my mother with me so I will eat a lot too, but if I jump around it is going to go well! I am so going to loose weight! If not, the night is getting ugly and my pillow is getting wet of tears! I am going to do my best!

Fashion Thinspo

This is Snejana Onopka, maybe the bonyest in the fashion business. She is a top model, a super fashionmodel and I love her and all angels love her. She maybe one of us angels? She ahs been fat... she is one of those models that keep on loosing weight all the time. I am so happy for her and those ones! Good luck to you guys!

Celeb Thinspo

Emma Watson is pretty fat but she got killer hipbones and in this picture you cna see them pretty well. Don't like her so much. Too fat, even fatter than me! Hate her

Fashion Thinspo

Look at her and feel fat! She has such a bony perfect chest. I want to be her! But don't like her face, she looks like a stripper! But it's not yur face that's important and counts, it is your body! And it is pretty sure that you get a pretty face if you loose some weight

Fashion Thinspo

This is a picture from Kenzo's great show for spring and summer 2007. All models was very skinny, they looked so beautiful and happy. And they are happy, they can be so beautiful!

The model that is waling on the runway in that picture is Vlada Roslyakova. She is the best model ever. I love her so much! She weights 50 kg and sometimes a little bit under that when she has a busy season on the runway like the summer 2006. And she is 178 cm long, she is like 10 cm longer than me and I weight more than her!

Vlada Roslyakova is one thin - Pure Perfection!

Thinspo

This one was my first thinspo ever. When I saw this one, I was like:

- I have to be skinny to get a career.

And from the moment I saw this picture, I have been an angel, except from the three months ago.. I have been a fat lazy girl near to be a fat curvey woman. That is my biggest fear, to be curvey.

High Thinspo

These pictures I fucking love! They are so good thinspiration for me! Take a look and feel fat!

You can only see one of her legs but that is enough to realize she is skinny. She is pure perfection!

This is a very skinny pornstar. Pornstars use to be fat and have big boobs but not this one, she pure perfection!

Promise

I had promised myself I would'nt eat for the whole summer and already the first day of the holyday I overeat. I eat like 1600 calories and that is pretty bad for ana angel. But inthe three las months is has been like 2000-2300 calories/day and that is freaking much. I hate myself for that. i am a monster! A monster with no rights to eat. The only right I have is to feel hunger. Hunger is my only friend. The hunger is Anas sis. Ana by her self is not hunger. She is no food no hunger. I will love her. I already love her. I miss her so much.

Lucky girl

The day was starting so well! I wan't eating ant thing before 14.3, then I ate a meal about 200 calores big (and that was 200 calories too much!). At 18.3 I hadn't ate anything else than the meal. I was s happy That was the best feeling for so long! I was so bouncy and I went out kicking with my kickboard and the calories just flied jumped of me! I felt so great, I can't explain. The I went inside and then everything went wrong. I started to binge! It was horrible. But it felt so rigt ofr the moment but now I hate me. I so fucking hate me! If this is going to continue I am going to kill myslef but I want to die glamurous and skinny. Angelic skinny! Like I was once three months ago. I was so lucky! Now I am going to be that lucky again!

The Beginning

I want to become that girl I once was. I want to become that angel of Ana. I have her in my soul, now I want her on the outside, too.

I weight 45 kg today. For three months I wegiht 40. I have gain 15 kg for only three months. That is insane. Now I want to drop some weight. My total goal is 38 but the summer projec will be to loose 6 kg. Then I am 49 when the school starts again. Taht should be so freaking cool!