Lucky girl

The day was starting so well! I wan't eating ant thing before 14.3, then I ate a meal about 200 calores big (and that was 200 calories too much!). At 18.3 I hadn't ate anything else than the meal. I was s happy That was the best feeling for so long! I was so bouncy and I went out kicking with my kickboard and the calories just flied jumped of me! I felt so great, I can't explain. The I went inside and then everything went wrong. I started to binge! It was horrible. But it felt so rigt ofr the moment but now I hate me. I so fucking hate me! If this is going to continue I am going to kill myslef but I want to die glamurous and skinny. Angelic skinny! Like I was once three months ago. I was so lucky! Now I am going to be that lucky again!