Promise

I had promised myself I would'nt eat for the whole summer and already the first day of the holyday I overeat. I eat like 1600 calories and that is pretty bad for ana angel. But inthe three las months is has been like 2000-2300 calories/day and that is freaking much. I hate myself for that. i am a monster! A monster with no rights to eat. The only right I have is to feel hunger. Hunger is my only friend. The hunger is Anas sis. Ana by her self is not hunger. She is no food no hunger. I will love her. I already love her. I miss her so much.